There's so much wrong with this essay. The standout is the red herring about atheists needing to prove God doesn't exist. Wrong. You (the believer) are making the claim that God exists. Atheists are rejecting your claim due to insufficient (or zero) evidence. The burden of proof never rests with a person who isn't persuaded by evidence. In the meantime, feel free to respond to my ten questions. So far all theists have failed (and always will): https://lyonsnyc.medium.com/ten-questions-that-a-theist-cant-answer-f54526c3e08d